Hass
I painted this piece today at about -5°C, so I worked as fast as I could.
I often have the impression that english words, especially curses, sound more harsh and 'on point' than the german ones. In this case I think it´s the opposite, "hate" or "hatred" doesn´t seem to have the impact of the german word "Hass" in my opinion.
Don´t get me wrong: I´m not promoting hate in any way, nor do I like it. But I can´t deny it´s existance. When you look around at what´s happening on our planet, it becomes plainly obvious in the rape and exploitation of the earth, of the plants and animals and also still many, many humans. When you look even deeper and work with your 'shadow aspects', you may come to the point that you have to admit to find hatred within yourself. Now this is not really nice to look at, unless you find it very reasonable to act it out on whom you perceive as your 'enemy'. I don´t. But I chose to stay with it and give it loving, non-judging attention and try to express as much of it in a safe manner as I can to release the charge and heal myself. This is what I´m working on.
I currently think of hate as the denial and inversion of heart, of love. But you can´t deny what isn´t there, so it seems to me that without heart there wouldn´t be hate. Isn´t the similarity of the words heart, hard and hate interesting?
So I chose pink for the heart in the background (unfortunately I had few cans of pink left, so I couldn´t fill it completely and had nothing left to work it out more). Heart that gets ignored and even ridiculed and attacked breaks, gets shattered to pieces and in a crack turns black and spits out hatred, it´s own inversion. I wanted it to look pointy, sharp and edgy. Also sick and poisenous. Therefore I chose the fill-in-colours named 'gut', 'liver' and 'kidney', plus 'acid'-green for the outlines. Unfortunately the green didn´t turn out like I hoped, neither in looks, nor in handling. I also added some neon yellow, green and pink, but you hardly see the effect on the photo. Might take a better one tomorrow...
Better Photo:
RAGE!
Today I painted a wall together with Hek and Fakt. It was freezing and we had a shower of snow, but at least it wasn´t raining like all the last days. When I asked myself what to paint, I found I wanted to express emotion, specifically rage! Since this is an often suppressed and denied emotion, I think it´s good to get to know ourselves on this level and work on safely expressing it and releasing the charge involved - thus to create a safer world for all of us!
I felt it was just right to work with these bright and dark shades of red, plus using the cold cyan for the outlines. The blue in the background has already been there. The red symbolizes blood and also the root chakra, where much rage is located. The cold cyan outlines make me think of metal, they symbolize heartless borders of suppression aswell as the sword 'defending' your borders on the outside in a rage. It felt good to do all these strokes without being bound in the average idea of having to do very clear and clean outlines to my piece. The charge releases into the ground via the arrows...
